I wonder if true love even exists anymore.
I guess I'm considered to be pretty old-fashioned for my age. My friends all cringe at the thought of being married before they're 30. Maybe that's because their parents are all divorced....but that's besides the point. Well maybe it's not.
I just want to be a younger wife and a young mom. Well that's the side of me that still believes real love just might be out there. I'm still on the fence about marriage. Let's just say IF true love really exists and it's just not what we were programmed to do by society and there is a guy I feel like I'm really meant to be with, then I'd want to be my own little version of the "perfect couple". You know, travel for a few years living in studio apartments, still cooking Ramen, then we'd get engaged on a foreign get away, and marry around 25. I'd have a kid or two by 30 and have settled down to a cozy little brick house on a cozy little street with a front porch and a backyard. I think every little girl has thought about this, or maybe I'm just a psycho.
So what if I'm a psycho, a girl can dream.
Okay, and if society, on the other hand, has actually ruined any chance at real love and divorce, adultery, and greed have become the norm, then why should I even try? I don't want to be the single mom, divorced at 35, and having to sign up for an eHarmony account.
Anyways, even if I did meet the perfect man, would I even want to have kids? If I'm this worried about how loveless our world is becoming now, imagine what the world will be like when my children are looking for love. Do I want to have kids knowing they might be divorced? Knowing they could never know what the real meaning of love is? What parent wouldn't want their children to fall in love and live out their own perfect little vision of happily ever after??
Is a soul mate the person you were born to find? Is it written in the stars? Or is a soul mate someone you meet at the right place, at the right time? Is it because it's really love or is it because you are just compatible with that person and you're at the age where you know you need to pick a husband or wife because that's just what you're supposed to do? I guess if everyone knew the answer to these questions, love wouldn't be a fun little game anymore.
Now my last question is this: When you do find love, is that feeling, those memories, worth the chance of you experiencing the most painful, heart shattering, break up of your life? What if the guy you think is "the one" leaves you for the girl he thinks is "the one"? Where does that leave you? I don't think I could ever recover, I don't think I'd ever believe in love ever again. That devastating heartbreak is probably the reason this world is full of bitter people.
The bottom line is: Do I put myself out there and risk heartbreak, or do I shelter myself and risk missing out on real love?
Is it really better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all?
I guess I'm considered to be pretty old-fashioned for my age. My friends all cringe at the thought of being married before they're 30. Maybe that's because their parents are all divorced....but that's besides the point. Well maybe it's not.
I just want to be a younger wife and a young mom. Well that's the side of me that still believes real love just might be out there. I'm still on the fence about marriage. Let's just say IF true love really exists and it's just not what we were programmed to do by society and there is a guy I feel like I'm really meant to be with, then I'd want to be my own little version of the "perfect couple". You know, travel for a few years living in studio apartments, still cooking Ramen, then we'd get engaged on a foreign get away, and marry around 25. I'd have a kid or two by 30 and have settled down to a cozy little brick house on a cozy little street with a front porch and a backyard. I think every little girl has thought about this, or maybe I'm just a psycho.
So what if I'm a psycho, a girl can dream.
Okay, and if society, on the other hand, has actually ruined any chance at real love and divorce, adultery, and greed have become the norm, then why should I even try? I don't want to be the single mom, divorced at 35, and having to sign up for an eHarmony account.
Anyways, even if I did meet the perfect man, would I even want to have kids? If I'm this worried about how loveless our world is becoming now, imagine what the world will be like when my children are looking for love. Do I want to have kids knowing they might be divorced? Knowing they could never know what the real meaning of love is? What parent wouldn't want their children to fall in love and live out their own perfect little vision of happily ever after??
Is a soul mate the person you were born to find? Is it written in the stars? Or is a soul mate someone you meet at the right place, at the right time? Is it because it's really love or is it because you are just compatible with that person and you're at the age where you know you need to pick a husband or wife because that's just what you're supposed to do? I guess if everyone knew the answer to these questions, love wouldn't be a fun little game anymore.
Now my last question is this: When you do find love, is that feeling, those memories, worth the chance of you experiencing the most painful, heart shattering, break up of your life? What if the guy you think is "the one" leaves you for the girl he thinks is "the one"? Where does that leave you? I don't think I could ever recover, I don't think I'd ever believe in love ever again. That devastating heartbreak is probably the reason this world is full of bitter people.
The bottom line is: Do I put myself out there and risk heartbreak, or do I shelter myself and risk missing out on real love?
Is it really better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all?
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